Reminiscent Smile

[Synthpop, Electronica, Emo, Acoustic]
{Piano, Sythesizer, Violin, Acoustic Guitar}

I'll be sad when you go,
But i want you know,
I'll never forget the face,
That filled my days.

I'll never forget the laughs you rang,
and the songs you gracefully sang.
the stories you wrote,
or the words you quoted.

[Chorus]
I'll always remember the times when you smile,
i'll think of it for a while,
Though i'll never forget when we drifted a mile.
I'll cherish these memories as if it was my last,
Even if they were nightmares from the past.
[Chorus]

What a flashback, though the picture is white and black.
My heart stopped just thinking of you,
i can't breathe, i turned blue.
Alone on my room, waiting for the flowers to bloom.
lying at the bed, thinking of how it all came to be.
Thinking of the smiles you turned to frown,
and came to turn my life upside down.

[Bridge]
Though im sad when you go,
But i would want you to know,
i will never ever forget the face,
whom i gave a place, in my heart.
[Bridge]

[Repeat Chorus]

As i watch my old CDs, my eyes opened wide,
and out my tears when i cried.
Rest assured that i won't, i will never forget,
But i wished that at that day, the sun never set.

[Repeat Chorus 2X]
[Repeat Bridge]

Though it ended,
I'm still happy it happened.

Angel in White

Angel in White

[Sythpop, Easy, Electronica]

You sweep down and took me off my feet,

Please take me with, you.

You fixed my eyes when they were sore,

You used lies to ignore the heart you tore.

But i love you even then,

But when will you come back, when?

[Chorus]

White angel of Light

The agent of the skies,

Savior of my dying soul,

Though I mourn for the heart you stole.

Though you left me a mess,

You cruel mistress,

I offer you my love that never dies.

[Chorus]

Love me or not, i looked up to you,

Hate me or not, I will follow you.

I'd always be there whenever you cry,

I’d always be there where you fall from the sky.

[Bridge]

I'm always there to bear the pain,

I’ll cover you from the cold rain.

I’ll always be there for you,

I'd be your crying shoulders,

Pour it all on me when you're blue.

[Bridge]

[Repeat Chorus]

You can be mean,

You left me unseen,

But still, i offer you my heart,

That you savagely rip apart.

I'd give you my life if i have to,

I’d give back you the life that you gave me,

But still, I love you whatever you will be

[Repeat Chorus 2X]
[Repeat Bridge]

I'll always be here,

though I’m not mortal,

And my wound is fatal,

I still love you, my dear.

The Suicide Note

God cant you just cease my suffering
God im Tired of Living.
Can't there just be a bullet on my head?,
Or never wake, lying on my bed?,
I cant take this anymore,
Depression , pain, and more.
"im tired of living,
im tired of suffering,
im tired of the truth,
tasting the bitter fruit,
wallowing in my despair,
because GOD thinks its Fair"
I said,
as i cried at my Bed
Whats the point of living,
i cant reach what im dreaming.
Can there be just a knife in my heart,
for a fresh new start,
cant be my neck broken by a Noose,
rather dealing of what i lose,
cant there be just a bottomless trench
than sitting, moping in a bench,
can i just be dead already,
can i just be killed by anybody,
each look a wound opens,
each smile wound deepens,
each laughter pain worsen,
my fates are cruel,
living in hell,
a world of spiraling depression,
created by her, where im on.
if you only knew,
i cant live without you
now i lie on my bed,
wishing that im already dead...


-The 6th Messenger

Love is you...

Love is the candy you eat,
its the grass beneath your feet,
It gives your life meaning,
It catches you when you are falling,
Love is what makes the world go around,
It’s the sweet, soothing sound,
Love is what gives the world color,
Love it what gives the roses their odor,
Love is what starts it all,
Love is what makes you stand tall,
It gives you color when you are blue,
This is why I need you…

-The 6th Messenger

How I Envy Them

Look at them, the couples in the park,
I envied them, but i show no mark,
I watched them closely,
as they were just walking beside me,
I stared at them with extreme jealousy.

I imagined if it was me and you,
if it was, i wont be deep blue.
if it only happened that way,
i would stay,
together with you,
but if you only knew.
Like the tin-man, looking for its heart,
i would persevere, just if i know where to start,

as i watched them, enviously,
i cannot deny, I'm filled with jealousy.


-The 6th Messenger

Last Will

The Last Will

Where am i? Its all dark, but all i can see is your face
its the mark that I'm dead, I'm trapped in this case.

I cant Move, I cant see anything,
I wish i could have done something
in my head, your image gleams,
It's my destroyed dreams
but just a shattered memory
filled with misery.

All my sorrow, stamped on my soul
the mark of fire stayed, now I'll never be whole,
The mark of me, the insignia of my horrid life
i knew it form the start, so i stabbed myself with a knife.

I'm begging, crying for the pain to stop,
bring my demise, just to put an end in this misery,
Death is just a simple long nap,
for those who held on eternally, and terribly weary.
This is my last Will,
For you to know what i feel,
comfort under the grave
i knew i was saved.


-The 6th Messenger

Take my hand

[Piano; Acoustic] Piano, Guitar

Take my hand and we'll fly to the northern sky,
we'll soar over the golden sands of time and w'll see it with our eyes,
I'll take you everywhere, anywhere you want.
Lets take a stare everywhere, where-ever Ill take you there...

We'll soar over the ocean Bblue, only with you
open your eyes, i'll take you to the sky,
I'am forever your wings that cleaves the sky, that lights the night.
I'd be your wind brushing your hair, I'll take you everywhere,
We'll glide over the mountains, the valleys and the seas.
For together with you, im free and is a glorious bliss.

We'll said the sky as we fly, We'll ride the winds
We'll soar to the distant light, over the clouds of white
W'll be together, forever.
W'll forever more glide over the ocean blue, the lush forests of green,
because i love you.

-The 6th Messenger
Original song self composed, still has no tone though. my second song wrote, the base tone is "Sky Sailing - Brielle or Blue and Red"
that was the songs i'm listening when i was writing this.

Evanescence

[Acoustic; Electronica; Synthpop and Electropop, slow] Synthesizer; Guitar; Violin

Years it has been, and you still haven't seen,
the sorrows i lamented, because of your heart that you cemented,
If you just hear my cries, in the middle of the night, up in the dark sky,
Throughout the horizon, the depression eats me alive, burning out the light till twilight.

---[Chorus]---
As i watch the stars and remember clearly my scars as i pay dearly,
i told you; "i loved You" Sincerely, and I now, I can’t tell you how I’m so Sorry
as i showered under the tears on the sky, I pondered and wondered: "Why?"
Stumped by your silence, and the evanescence.
Memories fades to a grey shade,
my heart shatters to tiny blades.
as it bleeds me dry, my life flashes through my eyes, a painful reminiscence.
as i endlessly cried, as i realize you're my point of existence.
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I loved you, endlessly, passionately.
I dream't of you every day, cause you're perfect for me in every way. 
As my melancholic destiny reach to me, 
My alcoholic tendency wont even make me free,
as i watch the sun set, my face turns wet,
and as i stare at the blank horizon, i wondered; Why won't i move on?...

[Repeat Chorus]

As i waited for the twilight every night,
i'll always cry as i watch the sky, kept asking; why?...
Frozen by your cruelty, burned by your beauty
I can't help to stop crying, for inside I’m hurting and my soul is dying,
I need you... i love you, whatever happens , it’s true.
I love you the way you are, no matter what, even with all these scars.
but then whatever maybe tomorrow, it'll always end up in sorrow.

[Repeat Chorus]

Till my death silence me, on the grave will end my penitence
But until then, i will always be choked by your evanescence and reminiscence,
it crushed my reason for existence.

-The 6th Messenger

A original piece of work, my Third song composed but no tone originally made, but the base tone is
"Jacques Cousteau - Swimming With Dolphins" or "Up in the Stars" by the same band.

Darkness of Light

Black than white,

Consuming the sight,

The truth found,

Darkness bound,

The light shined upon the soul

Like paper, it ripped the whole.

Destiny of abandonment,

The insanity of imprisonment.

Trapped in the reality,

The tragedy of destiny.

Like water, it flooded.

The mind was cluttered and clouded.

It washed away all hope,

All but is left is the sadness to cope,

To handle the truth means darkness bound,

The darkness of light,

Shine of might,

The love that smite,

The crushing reality,

The unforgiving tragedy,

The insanity of love,

An eternal hunger of love starved.

Salvation would never come,

For you will never come back,

Petty for some that love is what I lack.

Though light crept upon me,

Darkness is what everyone sees.

-The 6th Messenger

Show me the way

Lost, forgotten,

My body broken,

My soul shattered,

the ashes were scattered.

though im dead, i will abide

in your heart i will reside.

please don't leave me if i stay,

oh please show me the way.

My heart was stolen,

and after was broken,

but it doesn't matter,

if it was with you, it couldn't be any safer,

even along the ocean blue.

i'll see you on the other side,

in your heart i will reside,

We'll be together someday

Oh Please show me the way.

Up in the stars, to the sky

though six feet under i lie.

I will always in your heart,

even from the start.

-The 6th Messenger

Je te sens

Though im Symphatetic, and aphatetic,

i am absolutley pathetic.

I can feel that skewered shard on you

i can feel that gaping hole too.

that darkness that chokes,

that sadness that crepts.

i can always put together the heart you broke,

even to the deadly depths.

i gave a shard for you to keep,

for us to remember even if the price is steep.

if you have troubles come find me,

i'll do eveyrhing to make you happy.

if i just can, i would take that pain,

Even under the rain,

nothing is cold as your tears,

or terrible as your fears.

please give me a chance to help,

I'll take that pain myself,

if thats what i takes to free you from the sadness,

i'll take that agony as my own in the darkness.

-The 6th Messenger

A Midnight Dance in Paris

The sun have set, midnight struck,

at the foot of Eiffel tower i was stuck.

the moonlight shines down,

lets dance as if we own the town.

under the bright fuzzy lights,

we still have great sights,

just being with you gives me smile,

i've been longing for this dance for a while,

On the city of Romance.

Je t'aime tellement,

je ne veux pas te laisser partir,

The love, so sincere,distance is torment.

s'il vous plaît ne me laisse jamais aller,

Je ne veux pas te perdre à nouveau,

I couldn't be any happier,

please don't leave me now.

Ne pas lâcher,

Tiens moi serré,

Mon amour,

laissez-nous profiter

ignorer la foule,

laisse-nous danser.

Ne laissez pas y mettre fin,

for we deserve this after where we been,

Une danse,

would break us free.

laissez briller le lendemain

Ensemble, permet de regarder le lever du soleil,

au revoir, mademoiselle,

this dance freed me from my pain.

Goodbye, how i wish that we'd be together,

forever and ever.

A Midnight Dance in Paris to calm the soul,

to lift the spirit, to ease the pain, and make me whole.

-The 6th Messenger